Oi amigos e familiares,
I feel like today is a good day for this post.
Please know that talking about this is extremely hard for me but I feel it is the best thing to do at this point.
Back in 7th grade, I started dealing with anxiety. I struggled through so many things because I let it control my life. It was consuming me. But in 2014, I finally decided it was time to get it taken care of. I was able to go get help and improved SO MUCH. I was finally able to not let anxiety control me. I still felt some anxiety but I had improved in so many ways. That is what helped me go on a mission. The significant improvement that I had felt.
I have hid talking about anxiety because it is so embarrassing for me. It’s embarrassing for me to talk about and especially right now.
Yesterday, I came home from my mission. I came home because I fell right back into the old anxiety routine I had spent a year trying to get out of. I am home to get help so that I can get back on my feet again. I have planned on staying “in hiding” because I feel like I have failed all of you, but I feel that would hurt me even more. I didn’t want this to happen, but I need to take care of myself before I can help other people in Brazil. My mission is not over. I feel like I still need to go back out and serve, but I trust that the Lord knows what’s best.
My 20 day mission was an amazing experience. It was obviously very difficult under my circumstances, but it was amazing. My testimony has grown so much in 20 days and I can’t wait to feel that again. If you don’t know whether serving a mission is right for you, do it. Please do it. The Lord needs you.
Please know that I appreciate all the prayers in my behalf. I appreciate the concern from each one of you.
As I am still trying to adjust to the fact that I’m not at the MTC anymore, I would love to talk about it in about a week. 🙂 I’m very emotional right now, so trust me. You won’t want to talk to me for a week anyways.
Eu sei que o Pai Celestial e Jesus Cristo vive.
Eu sei que a Igreja de Jesus Cristo dos Santos dos Últimos Dias é verdadeira.
Eu sei que o Senhor vai me ajudar durante este julgamento difícil.
Eu sei que o meu Redentor vive.